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after reading through the comments, I feel compelled to add this (kind of depressing, sorry) thought: being published (for MOST of us--perhaps not for those who end up with true fame and very good contracts) doesn't change anything. Sure, for a few moments, you feel great. Validated. It's something you've worked hard for and now--here it is! A real, live book! A few people actually buy it (or the journal you were published in or whatever). They congratulate you. You feel like you've entered a club--those who have made it. Look how smart you are! Look how others acknowledge your intellect, your humor, your ability to write! And then.....crickets. Honest to god. It ends. And you are just you again. And no one cares about your book. i can't tell you how many people have asked me what I do and I say, well, I'm mostly a writer, I wrote a couple of novels. And that's.....end of conversation. If i didn't get personal satisfaction from putting pen to paper, I wouldn't do it. Because no one cares if I write or not. My "job" is to enjoy my life. And if that enjoyment comes from writing, then fantastic! But i know that it really doesn't amount to a hill of beans in this crazy world if I write or if i don't write. I'm not all that important and no one is waiting for my next book. It's a blast to get published, just like it's a blast to have any sort of success in life. But you are still you. And if you want a career, you have to manage to do it all over again, this time with expectations from others. I'm gonna post this even though maybe i should not. I know how lucky i am to ever have had a book published in the first place. I really do. But like anything, the thrill comes and goes and you are left with yourself again. My personal takeaway is that doing what you love is a great way to live a satisfying life. But it's all in the doing and not in the having done. What was the question again? Sorry, i'm rambling.

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Sigh. Heavy sigh. This is my life struggle. I write this now from my desk at work. Just this morning I sent a message to a friend saying that I hoped this summer I might find my way back to some writing. The absence has been long. I hope it will prove to have been a fruitful sabbatical, but it could just be time away where I grow more and more rusty and feel less and less a writer. Breadwinner. Not sure what I am winning except keeping the ship afloat. It's a ship without a lot of art on the walls. On your recommendation I ordered Tillie Olsen's "Silences". Like her, I have long been a mother who is solely responsible for running the household. It has been about 4 years since I published anything, and over a year since I submitted anything. I take photographs these days as it is art I can make as I go about my day. I dream of retirement. I dream about days when my worry is only that I have the time to write and I am not using it! I yearn for days when I can mark my writing time in hours, not minutes. I want my imagination to dwell in a house as big as the sky. I want to run away with my obsessions and not come home until after the supper dishes are done. This work-life makes all the best bits of me smaller, and I miss them so.

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