Ansuya, I have no right to barge into your life as if I were Dr Klutz the psychoanalyst, but – in terms of your writing and the difficulties of assembling the patchwork of past and present – I was wondering where the heart of your subject was, since that is key to your editorial decisions (I won't try to do better than GS's marvellous ad…
Ansuya, I have no right to barge into your life as if I were Dr Klutz the psychoanalyst, but – in terms of your writing and the difficulties of assembling the patchwork of past and present – I was wondering where the heart of your subject was, since that is key to your editorial decisions (I won't try to do better than GS's marvellous advice above). I've noted two things you've said, that seem to me to be close to the heart of why you're telling this story: "This was when I decided to improve myself, by starving myself, *" and "I'm only having a hard time in feeling any kindness or forgiveness towards her." That's very stark, very hard. You probably have your own ideas about how it came about that you feel so harshly towards yourself. Or perhaps you'd rather, as you say, avoid looking into it. But I can't help thinking you should try.
Forgive me if I've rushed in where angels fear to tread ;)
* as an opening line, that would make me want to read on! But you'd be opening up new fields – we'd want to know what happened next, but also what happened before...
Ansuya, I have no right to barge into your life as if I were Dr Klutz the psychoanalyst, but – in terms of your writing and the difficulties of assembling the patchwork of past and present – I was wondering where the heart of your subject was, since that is key to your editorial decisions (I won't try to do better than GS's marvellous advice above). I've noted two things you've said, that seem to me to be close to the heart of why you're telling this story: "This was when I decided to improve myself, by starving myself, *" and "I'm only having a hard time in feeling any kindness or forgiveness towards her." That's very stark, very hard. You probably have your own ideas about how it came about that you feel so harshly towards yourself. Or perhaps you'd rather, as you say, avoid looking into it. But I can't help thinking you should try.
Forgive me if I've rushed in where angels fear to tread ;)
* as an opening line, that would make me want to read on! But you'd be opening up new fields – we'd want to know what happened next, but also what happened before...
No, this is actually very helpful, and you are definitely right. I Am afraid to dive back into the ‘dark matter’ and moving in circles around it.